for you, yes you.

i dont ever think i will be able to believe a single word that comes out of your mouth again, i don't understand what i did to deserve the way you treated me behind my back, and when i write that i mean only you knew, you were the only one who knew the truth. I don't understand how after i was there for you when everyone else wasn't, you even had to lie to more people about what was really going on with you but you said you told me the truth, i don't even know if i believe that anymore. the sad thing is, i overheard you on the phone the other day and you were exactly the same. calling someone to provide information about something that was private between you and someone else, someone who said your bullshit is hard to deal with. i don't understand why you did this to me, you hurt me so bad, i really thought our friendship was real and to hear about you going around telling everyone your sob story and telling them all of the little, nonsense, stupid, irrelevant lies you told me. i'm embarrassed and ashamed, and for all of the countless times i stood up for you when you didn't think i did. the truth is it was never my fault countless of people to the left and right of me would say things about you, it was yours, it wasn't my job to stick up for you but i did, and i guess i lied to them too. i feel like an idiot for believing you, it's almost as if i drank your words like water.

i hope you get help so you don't hurt someone as bad as you hurt me.