it's so odd

how you can hate someone so much for all the aching and mental damage that they have done to you,
but then you love them just the same for just being themselves, or maybe you love them because of the type of leash put on you.
don't do this,
don't do that,
never ever do this,
don't even think about doing that.
oh, how the list can go on and on and on.

of course, i don't deserve my say because i am not as "perfect" as you.
you are just too "perfect."

i think, it just might be too much for me.