#23

This could hardly be any clearer.
The things you currently value most -the material aspects of your life- are not what is really valuable. Indeed, they are traps. Look very deep within, and see what truly lies there.




What truly lies there?

i am so bored

with everyone and everything,
i want to meet new people with new stories and things to laugh about.
i keep waiting for something to happen and it never does, it is just the same routine over and over again.

ah!

it's been a while,

travis and i wrote a pretty song today that i really love and other than that i just slept.
no school, or food, just sleep.

what do you really need?
yourself.

when do you know when enough is enough?

really when do you know?
am i just pretending like everything is great with us, or am i used to you putting friends, and music, and bicycle riding, in front of me.

i get it, i can be a selfish person when it comes down to you

but it's just cause i want you, allll the time, i always want to be with you and it hurts when i can tell you don't want me, the same. it's hard to explain cause feelings are hard to explain but that's how i feel.
i don't like being put second or third or fourth, i like being first with you.

kuh kah

i think im going to delete my myspace.
i've been on vacation for quite a while now, just so happy and not worrying about anything until i found a way to get on the computer and what good did it do for me? none.
i felt all of a sudden like i was missing out on something and all the emotions i hate feeling came rushing back like a slap in the face. now i remember how i felt back at home, horrible and stuck.
none of you matter because i will be gone once im done.
not in a mean or hurtful way but in a realistic way.
why do i have to waste my time pretending to be nice?
i dont, so i won't be anymore, not unless i want to be.


there i said it.
:)

up and down, up and down.

it's just so crazy how things can happen,
the way people act, and react,
the way people love or don't.

it's all around, it's in you, and it's in me.
a reason for being happy is the amount of love you are allowed to give,
an endless amount.

be happy because of your love,
it's all you need, you know.

.

nothing has changed, like i had a feeling it wouldn't.
you're a joke.