p//s

after i finished putting the whipped cream and chocolate drizzle very delicately on the hot chocolate i just made for a little girl my boss turned to me and said, "that looks great anabel don't ever let anyone tell you you're not skilled at anything."

:)
tehe.

1.28.08

i have confidence in you,
and i have confidence in myself,
but most of all,
i have confidence in us,
only cause it's called love,

anything else and we wouldn't exist.
oh gosh, i love you so much.
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for you, yes you.

i dont ever think i will be able to believe a single word that comes out of your mouth again, i don't understand what i did to deserve the way you treated me behind my back, and when i write that i mean only you knew, you were the only one who knew the truth. I don't understand how after i was there for you when everyone else wasn't, you even had to lie to more people about what was really going on with you but you said you told me the truth, i don't even know if i believe that anymore. the sad thing is, i overheard you on the phone the other day and you were exactly the same. calling someone to provide information about something that was private between you and someone else, someone who said your bullshit is hard to deal with. i don't understand why you did this to me, you hurt me so bad, i really thought our friendship was real and to hear about you going around telling everyone your sob story and telling them all of the little, nonsense, stupid, irrelevant lies you told me. i'm embarrassed and ashamed, and for all of the countless times i stood up for you when you didn't think i did. the truth is it was never my fault countless of people to the left and right of me would say things about you, it was yours, it wasn't my job to stick up for you but i did, and i guess i lied to them too. i feel like an idiot for believing you, it's almost as if i drank your words like water.

i hope you get help so you don't hurt someone as bad as you hurt me.

on october 16, 2008 at 11:55 you wrote:
"i'd be in trouble
oh i'd be in trouble if you wandered off somewhere with someone else
while i was left to wonder,
where you had walked without me by your side
not holding your hand,
even if i never knew you,
i still wouldn't understand
your worth it,
so worth it,
so very very worth it."

thanks for that,
and all of the others, they really make all the difference,
i love you.











p//s
suburban nightlife has a new song
check it out :)
myspace.com/suburbannightlife1

and i never thought this would be the outcome.

you're a dumb cunt,
sucks.

it's so odd

how you can hate someone so much for all the aching and mental damage that they have done to you,
but then you love them just the same for just being themselves, or maybe you love them because of the type of leash put on you.
don't do this,
don't do that,
never ever do this,
don't even think about doing that.
oh, how the list can go on and on and on.

of course, i don't deserve my say because i am not as "perfect" as you.
you are just too "perfect."

i think, it just might be too much for me.

:z

i take my license test tomorrow, ah!