everything, everything, nothing.

i have decided that all the things i don't want to write in my actual journal i am just going to write in here because i can't let me secrets become exposed to whoever please to type in the link to my little blog spot! not that everyone is dying to read this or anything. i just feel like this is most necessary.
i'll also just go on and on about you because i don't want to look back at my pretty pages and see that they've been ruined with words of false hope. will someone please tell me how i am even capable of giving so many chances? is there something wrong with me, something wrong enough for me to allow myself to continuously get hurt time and time again? i guess no one knows, i doubt anyone does if i can't even figure it out. i hate writing long posts and even worse, reading them, so sorry about this one.
:/
today is the first day in a long time where yassi and i have not spent every thursday night together doing what we do best,
_ _ _ _ _ _ _. tehe, its our little secret, just ours. it's nice to have something we can call our own.